Hello everyone, I hope you all had a quiet and relaxing Christmas and New Years!
It's been a busy few months for me- I went away with my mum to Thailand in early november and had a blast there with her; we both needed a break after the stressful year we'd had. It was great to get away but we came back to reality a bit too quickly because one of our dogs had been quite ill before we had left and gotten increasingly worse the longer we were away. We ended up getting her put down the same day we came home, so not only were we jet-lagged and feeling grotty, but we also had the emotional strain that made for a very long day. It was hard to see her suffer like that, and even now we find it a little diffivult to talk about, but in the end I'm just glad we got to say goodbye to her.
On a more positive note, my little sister and I sat a test to help us get into University a few weeks after Holly was put down and we got our results back two days ago. Look out world. Haulau
and I are going to Uni this year! We're actually doing the same course, which will be interesting. I'm going to give teaching a shot but if I find I'm not enjoying it, I'll probably transfer to a media arts course I was looking at. The only downside is (and wait till I explain why this is a downside before saying that I'm a terrible friend) one of my old school friends will be doing the same course. The tihing is, I want to be independent and I'm worried that if I should change my mind and transfer courses Ill fall into old habits and start relying on others to help motivate me and get me throught the year. But I'll cross that bridge if I come to it; for now I'm just enjoying my last few weeks of calm and peace before the madness starts!
Health-wise, things are looking up too; I still get tired easily and sometimes I have uncontrollable flare-ups (usually triggered by food, and I end up with stomach cramps so bad I can barely walk), but I'm slowly learning what to avoid and what I can enjoy with no possibilities of things making me ill.
We got a new boss at work and the first time I spoke to her was actually when I was calling in sick; I'd had one of the worst flare-ups to date and she wasn't very pleased with me. I also spoke to my old boss who was in the process of leaving when she told me outright that if I was taking my medication and doing what my doctor told me to do, I wouldn't be calling in sick now. At first I was a little upset, but even now I'm really angry that she made such comments. When I told one of my workmates what she'd said later on, she was disgusted- my boss had acted so supportive of me when I was ill, and she seriously thought that me being medicated would instantly make me better- which is in no way true. There's no way to tell how my body will be from one day to the next; I can be absolutely fine one day and have a horrid one the next. And even when I don't look ill, I can still be feeling like a sentient trashcan on the inside- hence why Ulcerative Colitis is called an invisible illness.
And in other news, after being engaged for 3 years this February, my partner and I will finally be getting married this October. I've booked our ceremony and reception locations and we're both super excited; we've waited and been saving up for this for a long time!
All in all, it's going to be one hell of a year, but I'm looking forward to the challenges that lie ahead!
Stay safe, healthy and happy everyone!